On my walk to work yesterday afternoon I was able to enjoy a light sheet of snow flurries while my headphones pumped out some Frank Sinatra. It was lovely. I will take the bitter cold (which I can fight with my superpowers of Layering) and flurries over sleet, rain, hail or anything else that is associated with Winter. I know it is coming. The Almanac predicted 7 storms this Winter. A passerby yesterday made sure I was aware that we are due for a blizzard since the last big one was in '95. In those moments I just think of my little envelope tucked away where I stash any dollars I can spare that scream WEST COAST!
The move get's scarier the more and more I think about it. But along with the fear comes the exhilaration and the hope. I have been accused of running in the past and I won't put that accusation to bed in any way. Sure, it's easy to run. But life is always there to remind you that the past will always be there but it is up to you to right your wrongs. Your responsibility to learn from your mistakes and grow. I feel satisfied with my progress in the past few months. I sure made a mess of things here. They were a mess when I left and I continued to stir the pot bit by bit. But with my trials I feel as though I have found little bits of triumph.
LA is no different. I was on a roller coaster in my 20's and early 30's. I made plenty of mistakes and I feverishly wish to return to redeem myself...for myself. I feel as though I have been granted a second chance and I hope to have the chance to live a life in potential while I still can. With all of the issues I have had this last year with my health, I am just thankful for each day. There was a time where that may have not been a possibility. Now is the time to make each minute worth the gift.
So in the update of general life, things are going well. I have definitely noticed a weird depletion in my uplifting energy. I think I overdosed on sun exposure this summer and now that I am mostly bound indoors for my reading, my body is screaming at me a bit. I should get one of those weighted blankets and refuse to let the cold get me down and sit outside anyways!
My many jobs are interesting and keep me busy. I like each one in it's own way and honestly I don't know what I would do with myself if I actually had an entire day off! That sounds so selfish but I honestly enjoy my routine. Sure, I have to squeeze in time for laundry and getting to the market (I haven't been in 2 weeks!), but it also helps me prioritize what is important. When I have the chance to take time for myself, I do. No exceptions. If I can rally and spare a few dollars to go out, I will. But those things are becoming more and more difficult to justify. Spend $30 going out to dinner and a movie or eat at home and watch Netflix? That makes me sound like such a Scrooge! But I don't make a million dollars so those dollars I do earn, need to go to the places I need them to the most. I feel guilty declining going out. I am still young, right?! But at the same time, I know what I am doing is the right thing for my situation.
So I leave you here today and I just realized that I have gone on quite the rant! The main reason I wanted to post (LOL) is to let anyone who would like to know... that writing is off to a good start. To give you a little tease, there are 7 novels. Each one is just a bit different and if you pay close enough attention, You will find the degrees of separation are quite thin between the characters in these books and they may even run into each other from book to book. I'll keep you updated in the journey and if I can keep my head in the game, the first to arrive will be available in roughly a month. Fingers crossed ya'all!
Thanks for stopping by!
-Blondesheep