Happy Holidays to you and yours. December has suddenly appeared and here we are weeks away from Christmas. No matter if I was on the West Coast living from paycheck to paycheck with a Charlie Brown Christmas tree on my coffee table or a fully lit and decorated 6 ft family addition, I have always found a way to find my spirit. This year has been harder than most. Now spending my fourth Christmas back in PA, so much has changed. From my first year there was a dinner with my sister, her son and boyfriend with my Nan. The second and third owned their own stories with my partner at the time and his family.
Now on my own and reliving the good and the bad of the holidays past in this state, it's been difficult to rebuild my holiday collections and enjoy the season. Last year I had had compiled quite a bit of Holiday stock. From beautiful ornaments to strings of lights connected to bluetooth and would play music from the tree! By this time the skirt was filled with pretty packages, ribbons, bows and name tags. But alas, all of that cheer stayed with my former partner. So now it's starting over from scratch .
Thankfully a dear friend from out West will be heading here to PA for the first time next week. My partner in crime even shipped an artificial tree to my doorstep in hopes to initiate the spirit. So I have setup the tree, hung the strings of new lights and placed a skirt neatly around the bottom. I'm waiting for further jolly until he arrives next week. This year I will have a fresh color theme and try to make the most of the holiday. Heck, the weatherman is calling for 2 inches of snow tomorrow! That will surely put me in the spirit, right?!!
But I think in all honesty, it will mean a lot to have my friend visiting. My Nan is at the home with Alzheimer's and stage 4 dementia. My sister and I have been out of touch for quite a few months and my relationship status has been a bit all over the place for the past 6 months. I left my full-time job in October and just started a month ago working part time so I've been watching my spending which doesn't bode well during the gift giving season! But nonetheless, this Holiday is not about the giving or receiving. I'll be blessed with the presence of my friend, one of my best friends who I haven't seen since the day I left California. He literally dropped me at the airport! And quite frankly, I'm glad he is heading East, these Cali wild fires are terrifying!!
So in the midst of trying to break free from this jolly-less rain cloud that has been posted over my head this year, I vow to try my best to find my spirit. If it does snow tomorrow maybe I'll just have to go play in it for a while and catch a few snowflakes on my tongue to snap me out of this funk!
As I come to a close, just remember that the holidays can be tough on anyone and difficult to spend alone. If you have the opportunity to extend a welcome to a friend, a neighbor or a family member, you may just never know how much it meant to them.
Cheers friends and here is hoping you have found your jolly!
Blondesheep
Now on my own and reliving the good and the bad of the holidays past in this state, it's been difficult to rebuild my holiday collections and enjoy the season. Last year I had had compiled quite a bit of Holiday stock. From beautiful ornaments to strings of lights connected to bluetooth and would play music from the tree! By this time the skirt was filled with pretty packages, ribbons, bows and name tags. But alas, all of that cheer stayed with my former partner. So now it's starting over from scratch .
Thankfully a dear friend from out West will be heading here to PA for the first time next week. My partner in crime even shipped an artificial tree to my doorstep in hopes to initiate the spirit. So I have setup the tree, hung the strings of new lights and placed a skirt neatly around the bottom. I'm waiting for further jolly until he arrives next week. This year I will have a fresh color theme and try to make the most of the holiday. Heck, the weatherman is calling for 2 inches of snow tomorrow! That will surely put me in the spirit, right?!!
But I think in all honesty, it will mean a lot to have my friend visiting. My Nan is at the home with Alzheimer's and stage 4 dementia. My sister and I have been out of touch for quite a few months and my relationship status has been a bit all over the place for the past 6 months. I left my full-time job in October and just started a month ago working part time so I've been watching my spending which doesn't bode well during the gift giving season! But nonetheless, this Holiday is not about the giving or receiving. I'll be blessed with the presence of my friend, one of my best friends who I haven't seen since the day I left California. He literally dropped me at the airport! And quite frankly, I'm glad he is heading East, these Cali wild fires are terrifying!!
So in the midst of trying to break free from this jolly-less rain cloud that has been posted over my head this year, I vow to try my best to find my spirit. If it does snow tomorrow maybe I'll just have to go play in it for a while and catch a few snowflakes on my tongue to snap me out of this funk!
As I come to a close, just remember that the holidays can be tough on anyone and difficult to spend alone. If you have the opportunity to extend a welcome to a friend, a neighbor or a family member, you may just never know how much it meant to them.
Cheers friends and here is hoping you have found your jolly!
Blondesheep